On November 16, 1965, Beth Taylor's idyllic childhood was shattered at age 12 by her older brother’s suicide. Raised in an "intentional community" north of Philadelphia--a mix of farm village, hippie commune, and suburb--she and her siblings were instilled with nonconformist values and respect for the Quaker tradition. With the loss of her beloved sibling, Taylor began her complicated journey to understand family, loss, and faith. Touching on the timely issues of bullying, child rearing, and non-conformity, as well as religious heritage, patriotism, and pacifism, Taylor offers a rare look at growing up Quaker in the tumultuous 1960s that shows the more sober side of the decade's counterculture. Beth Taylor says that she learned many things from her childhood, in particular that history is alive--and shapes how we judge ourselves and choose to live our lives. She comes to see that grief can be a mask, a lover, and a teacher. Beth Taylor teaches in the Nonfiction Writing Program at Brown University.